i don't (wanna) know

I’ve been spending the last 2 years of constantly feeling weird and questioning my entire life.

How I enjoy having real friends, taking pictures of fun things, and living simple. No big or small drama, just being me and accepting the way the world revolves around.

Knowing what is love without questioning every single detail, knowing that we’re still friends even though a lot fights or debates could happen between us at any time, knowing that life will go just… fine.

Who am I acting for? Or is it the time for ‘Welcome-to-the-real-life’ cliché?

I can’t rest my head for a minute, I can’t stop thinking.

I hardly sleep at night, I hardly relax most of the time.

I forgot who I stand for. I de-motivated myself.

I miss looking at all the past experience with a smile that unintentionally pops up.

So if I ask myself, do I enjoy my life?

Not at all.

Penulisjournal.