random day at someones 'home'

Yesterday, I was invited by a friend of mine untuk ikut sebuah acara perkumpulan anak-anak Kristen.

The only thing she gave me was this picture.

Designs... pretty good.

Gue tanya itu apa, dia bilang ikut aja. Dia berharap gue ikut, dan jadi... gue ikut.

Alasan gue ikut karena gue (mungkin) agak bosan di rumah, dan I guess I've been shutting down myself with the idea of meeting new people, just a little too much.

Theres a lot of thoughts goes through my head while driving to this place called Abbalove Ministries.

Pertanyaan-pertanyaan kayak apa jangan-jangan gue bakal disuruh kasih persepuluhan pas bayar parkir, apa gue bakal dijeburin di kolam baptis, atau apa gue akan dibacain ayat Kitab Suci sampai jiwa gue keluar.

Shelen (Orang-yang-ngajak-gue-ke-abbalove-ministries) nanya lokasi gue udah dimana. Jalanan sangat macet, dan satu-satunya gedung yang bisa gue sebutkan adalah... Alexis.

Untung aja Alexis belom buka jam segitu.

 Sampai di tempatnya, gue melihat layar hp dan menemukan bahwa batre gue tinggal 10%, oh great. (Dan karena gue pake google maps, batre hp gue jadi lebih cepat habis.)

Hello Jakarta.

Gue naik menuju lobby dan melihat sekumpulan anak-anak yang gue analisa berusia kisaran SMP dan SMA lagi mengelompok. Sementara gue sendirian, pakai baju hitam lengan panjang dan simply said, I look very unapproachable.

Setelah kasih tau Shelen lewat chat, akhirnya gue ketemu sama dia. Dan reaksi dia yang dia berikan adalah, "Gue gak nyangka lo bakal dateng. Gila-gila lo keren banget."

(Gue mungkin gak begitu tahu cara yang tepat untuk menyambut orang, tapi gue yakin kata 'keren' bukan kata yang tepat... (I think she may got some minor brain problem, but yeah...))

Spontaneously, dia kenalin gue ke sekitar 10 orang temen dia dalam waktu kurang dari 5 menit, dan resultsnya. Gue gak inget satupun dari orang-orang itu, baik nama serta mukanya.

Lalu kita berjalan ke arah belakang untuk menemukan... lebih banyak orang lagi untuk dikenal (God, I felt drained.)

Shelen mendudukkan gue bersama temen-temennya yang berasal dari satu daerah yang sama. Ketua dia namanya Ellen dan pada moment itu dia masih sehat. Tapi satu hal yang gue gak tau, 40 menit setelah pertemuan pertama kita menit itu, kaki dia berubah keseleo... gara-gara main Just Dance di Xbox. (Enggak kok, gue bukan pengaruh buruk.)

Skip, skip. Gue duduk bersama sekawanan manusia, dengerin lagu dan cuman tepuk tangan dan gak ikutan nyanyi karena gue gak tau liriknya, lalu lanjut ke dengerin pembimbingnya dan I have to admit, he was good at speaking. Lalu kita makan, dan santai-santai.

And thats it, acaranya selesai gitu aja.
Penulisjournal.

pelangi.

ku ingin cinta hadir untuk selamanya
bukan hanya lah untuk sementara
menyapa dan hilang
terbit tenggelam bagai pelangi
yang indahnya hanya sesaat
tuk ku lihat dia mewarnai hari

tetaplah engkau disini
jangan datang lalu kau pergi
jangan anggap hatiku
jadi tempat persinggahanmu
untuk cinta sesaat

mengapa ku tak bisa jadi
cinta yang tak akan pernah terganti (ku hanya menjadi)
cinta yg tak akan terjadi
lalu mengapa kau masih disini
memperpanjang harapan

kau bagai kata yg terus melaju
diluasnya ombak samudera biru
namun sayangnya kau tak pilih aku
jadi pelabuhanmu

bila tak ingin disini
jangan berlalu lalang lagi
biarkanlah hatiku
mencari cinta sejati
wahai cintaku
wahai cinta sesaat

#2 How have you changed in the past 2 years?

2 tahun. Artinya 2014. SMA 2.

Kemarin gue random aja dapet foto ini dari ask.fm. Exactly the same day, but its 2 years ago.

Back then I was very healthy. Gue selalu menjaga tubuh gue dengan melakukan muay thai dan OCD (Waktu itu dietnya si 'Botak' lagi ngetrend banget.)

I was chasing a girl, but I can't get her because I was way too introverted and lives too much inside my head.

Joining debate club and I found out that being intelligent is better than being powerful or good at sports.

My habit was kinda weird, I did Impact (Muay thai) at 2pm, sleep afterwards, and go Shisha at 7pm. Sometimes, ada hari dimana kita realize kalau besoknya kita akan ada ujian lari, but we're just like... fuck it.

I still can't drive a car, 16 yrs old. Masih naik motor kemana-mana, kayak abang-abang... tapi bedanya gue sipit.

One of the best year I've ever had. I enjoy being ketua kelas dan akrab sama most of penghuni kelas dan juga wali kelas yang meskipun gak bisa apa-apa tapi tetep oke aja buat diajak kompromi. (Kita sekelas pernah saking malesnya belajar sampai pesen Big Box dari Pizza Hut, dan pura-pura ada yang ulang tahun...)

Once I was 16 years old.
Penulisjournal.

Now What?

Finally. We've reached the end of our suffering. (translate: akhirnya gue selesai ujian shit.)

Tepat hari ini, 14 Juni 2016 menjadi hari terakhir gue di semester 2. I've met beberapa new people di semester ini dan meskipun gue gak selalu bisa inget muka dan nama mereka, yah paling enggak mereka udah kenal gue. (Berasa artis... Uhuk.)

Nilai gue yang udah keluar cukup buruk untuk semester ini karena gue (dengan bodohnya) mencoba untuk gak nyontek di seluruh ujian gue kali ini. Moral of the story untuk semester depan, nyonteklah dengan niat yang baik agar nilaimu juga tetap baik.

Sebelum pulang gue sempet bikin foto sama 2 orang hopeng (baca: babu) gue di Untar. Dan i'll upload it later on karena fotonya masih belom dikirim...

Dan gue berpikir, now what?
Apa yang harus gue lakukan sekarang?

Plan gue untuk sekarang adalah:
1. Bersihin rumah sampe rapi dan nyaman
2. Belajar programming yang udah lama banget gue tinggalin
3. Bikin video-video komentar di YouTube
4. Nonton film-film twist yang belum sempet gue tonton
5. Urusin cabang baru Vookah (@vookah_id)

And thats it so far.

Gue diajak pergi ke Dufan, dan mungkin juga ke Waterbom. But since its gonna waste a lot of energy... maybe nah. Or idk. 

Anyway, i feel really happy and sort of exhausted atm.

Timmy time,
Penulisjournal.

#1 Weird Things You Do When You're Alone?

1. Gue kentut. Dengan interval seperti unlimited machine gun

Gue sendiri di kamar dan kentut gue emang bunyinya agak absurd jadi... well I guess everyone basically doing it, right?

2. Nyanyi like a pro and dance like a stupid fuck in front of a mirror

I can sing, quite. Tapi dance? I'm possible to be one of the worst.

3. Act like I'm being interviewed for something important

Anggap aja kayak lagi diberi pertanyaan-pertanyaan penting dan sulit, lalu dengan khayalan gue akan menjawab seolah-olah gue adalah orang paling bijak di Bumi.

4. Random workout mode

Push-ups, shadow boxing, kicking the air for nothing.

5. Pretending I'm making a reaction video of something

Just keep on talking to myself while watching a video. Feeling lonely.

6. Crying while listening to sad song

Like a professional emo bitch.

7. Sniff my own body to determine whether I need to take a shower or nah.

You know a certain area that sweats. 

Whats yours?

Penulisjournal.

2/8

Tahu Bulet.

Gue gak tau kenapa game itu lagi happening banget di Untar dan semua lagi kayak kecanduan game ini. Dulu gue pernah main game sejenis, namanya Bitcoin Billionaire. Dan game itu juga sukses membuat gue kecanduan, dan gue akhirnya berhenti main game itu karena... batre hp gue mulai bocor.

Anyway, gak kerasa semester 2 gue di kuliah udah mau kelar. Tadi sepulang kuliah, gue ditawarin untuk jadi ketua Oranye, which is organisasi jurnalistik di kuliah dan gue baru join itu sekitar 2 bulan lalu (?). I'm feeling happy tapi mostly shocked karena gue kaget aja kenapa bisa kepilih jadi calon ketua. Overall, gue merasa senang karena akhirnya gue reach something else di kuliahan gue selain mengembangkan skill nyontek dan tidur di kelas.

Sebenernya gue mau ikut DPM, organisasi kuliah yang ngurusin mahasiswa. Willing to join as a committee dan mungkin jadi pengurus inti one day. But first, semoga gue bisa diterima masuk dulu deh.

Ngomongin semua curhatan organisasi diatas, sebenernya gue mau menekankan kalo gue lagi giving priorities ke finding new connections karena gue merasa new connections will lead me somewhere to new ideas.

Sekarang tapi sayangnya, gue gak bisa terlalu banyak menghayal. In a week, gue akan kembali UAS. Satu hal yang gue harapkan adalah gue akan tetap dapat nilai baik sekalipun gak pakai jam dewa.

Saying all this stuff(s), gak berasa banget 1 tahun udah berlalu sejak gue terakhir kali pakai seragam SMA. 2,5 to 3 years more to go. I just wished I found what I really had to do in life when the time comes.

Upcoming project dari gue adalah YouTube channel yang lagi direncanakan bareng 5 orang temen gue. Content udah mulai direncanakan, dan semoga gak putus di tengah jalan aja. (Padahal mulai aja belom.)

Also, tips buat yang baru mau masuk kuliah:

- Jangan anggep enteng pelajaran di kuliah

- Put yourself dalam sebuah organisasi, that way lu akan lebih dikenal orang

- Give a good first impression to anyone yang lu ketemuin di kuliah

- Choose only friends that defines who you are. Kalau lu anak yang suka bolos, ya temenan sama yang bolos. Kalo lu mau nilai bagus, temenan sama yang rajin

- Make connections sama dosen, you can learn anything from them

- Buat to-do lists, biar gak lupa sama kerjaan

Also some resolution untuk my 2nd year in Uni.

- Ketua di DPM (Padahal masuk aja belom tentu.)

- Bisa lebih sering menulis cerita gue di blog ini. Karena gue punya short-term memory, padahal banyak hal lucu yang bisa diceritain

- Lebih rajin bikin to-do list

Demam tahu,

Penulisjournal.

spare time.

The best word to describe my feeling right now would be the word...

'I FEEL FREEEEEEEE'

Sejak update terakhir gue, tumpukan tugas telah mengisi hari-hari yang biasanya kosong sehingga waktu gue terlimitasi untuk melakukan kegiatan-kegiatan gabut. (Sehingga terkadang membuat gue berharap 1 hari consists of more than 24 hours.)

Anyway, you should really listen to Brian McKnight's songs. A friend of mine recommends these songs way back in the past, and unintentionally I started to look up and found that the song '6, 8, 12' and 'Back at One' are two of my faves songs of this month.

Pokoknya gue yang paling ganteng.

Noted things to be putted here adalah gue Senin kemarin baru aja surprise salah satu temen kuliah gue, and I was waiting for the right time to work on creating vlogs of it. Basically, karena kemarin sibuk banget dengan semua tugas jadi gue gak sempet edit footagenya, gue akan put out the results as soon as I got the mood back for editing.

If you're wondering about the results, just type 'Kevin Adri vlogs' at YouTube search bar. If you like my videos, you know what to do.

I don't really know why I typed 80% of this post using English. Tapi gak apa lah, no one ever read this blog tho. (But if someone are actually reading, feel free to type in the comments box below)

Until then,

Penulisjournal.

Stacks

Bersih. Bersin.

Rumah yang sekarang gue tinggali sudah gue tempati sejak lahir. Jadi, belum ada sekalipun gue merasakan apa yang namanya 'Pindah rumah.'

Punya rumah yang konsisten dalam waktu 18 tahun merupakan hal yang fine-fine saja, karena gue jadi gak perlu repot-repot menghafal lagi alamat dan nomor telfon rumah baru. (Bahkan kalo ditanya yang sekarang aja, gue masih belum tentu hafal.)

But, here's the bad news. Setelah 18 tahun tinggal, gue baru menyadari adanya keberadaan salah satu sudut rumah di dekat area gantungan baju yang selalu menjadi sasaran penumpukan barang, dan akhirnya sekarang terlihat menjadi gudang ke-2.

Akhirnya pada 5 Mei 2016, gue memutuskan untuk menghapuskan tradisi 'Numpukin-barang-di-sudut-ruangan'. Didampingi oleh asisten setia gue (baca: mbak), gue bongkar semua kardus-kardus dan kantong plastik. Moral of the story dari bersihin rumah adalah.

1. Gunakan masker + sarung tangan
2. Jangan tumpukin barang
3. Makanlah sebelum beraktivitas
4. Manfaatkan mbakmu sebaik mungkin
5. Udah.

Anyway, gue menemukan beberapa hal yang cukup menarik dari pembersihan kemarin. When I got time, I'll picture some of those.

Uhuk,
Penulisjournal.

naik tanggal

Recently, gue baru aja re-open bisnis shisha gue yang sempat vakum selama 3 bulan. Buka lagi di restoran dengan billiard-game concept. Dalam beberapa minggu belakangan ini, gue got a lot of new business challenge. Tapi gue senang bisa back on the track dan mendapatkan pengalaman-pengalaman baru yang membangun diri gue. (Instagram: @ipoolshisha)

1 minggu lalu gue melewati UTS terakhir, dan gak kerasa dalam 3 bulan gue akan resmi menjadi mahasiswa semester 3. Which means, terbuanglah sia-sia satu tahun gue bolak-balik dari rumah ke Untar.

Well, gak sia-sia banget sih.

I got some new connections, tapi dengan sadar gue memiliki rencana untuk gabung di UKM-UKM lain, supaya kenalan semakin banyak lagi dan who knows I may also found out something fun on UKM.

Rencana LDR 1 tahun batal karena... dia balik dadakan. Spent some days with her and there she goes... back into thin air. Tapi gak apalah yang penting gak putus.

Oh, I just created a new YouTube account. Namanya Kevin Adri. I'll be posting out about vlogs of things yang berupa event-events, some weird shit theories, dan mungkin beberapa hal lain yang belum sempat terpikirkan. Anyway, as always. Like, Comment, & Subscribe for more videos. (But seriously, do it.)

Those are some updates yang bisa gue share. Actually ada beberapa post yang pending mengenai kepribadian gue, jalan-jalan gue ke Kidzania dan tentang beberapa hal yang cukup mengganggu gue belakangan ini. I'll write lagi kalau udah ada waktu... lagi.

Full-stop punctuation,
Penulisjournal.

Questions of life (sort of)

1. What activity in your life lights you up with joy?
2. What is something you always love doing, even when you are tired or rushed? Why?
3. If a relationship or job makes you unhappy, do you choose to stay or leave?
4. What do you fear about leaving a bad job or a bad relationship?
5. What do you believe is possible for you?
6. What have you done in your life that you are most proud of?
7. What is the thing that you are second most proud of?
8. What kind of legacy do you want to leave behind?
9. How does your being here in the universe change humanity for the better?
10. If you could have one single wish granted, what would it be?
11. How comfortable are you with your own mortality?
12. What is your highest core value?
13. To your best knowledge, how do other people perceive you?
14. How would you like others to perceive you?
15. How confident are you in your abilities to make decisions for yourself?
16. What is your biggest self-limiting belief?
17. Who is the most important person in your life?
18. Who is your greatest role model?
19. Who is a person that you don’t like yet you spend time with?
20. What is something that is true for you no matter what?
21. What is your moral compass in making difficult decisions?
22. What is one failure that you have turned into your greatest lesson?
23. What role does gratitude play in your life?
24. How do you feel about your parents?
25. How is your relationship with money?
26. How do you feel about growing old someday?
27. What role has formal education played in your life and how do you feel about it?
28. Do you believe your destiny is pre-determined or in your hands to shape however you wish?
29. What do you believe is the meaning of your life?

1. What activity in your life lights you up with joy? Anything that improves myself as a human being. Knowledge, and human-related feels.
2. What is something you always love doing, even when you are tired or rushed? Why? Business. Money-related issues.
3. If a relationship or job makes you unhappy, do you choose to stay or leave? Stay and fix.
4. What do you fear about leaving a bad job or a bad relationship? Can't find an actual job or relationship that could remain as a better memory.
5. What do you believe is possible for you? I'm possible to be one of the smartest individuals on earth.
6. What have you done in your life that you are most proud of? Be one of the first of my age to start and actualize a business plan to reality.
7. What is the thing that you are second most proud of? So far, nothing.
8. What kind of legacy do you want to leave behind? People knows me as a good person who helps and motivates others, inspirational to some people.
9. How does your being here in the universe change humanity for the better? Well that is still a far question to be answered.
10. If you could have one single wish granted, what would it be? World domination.
11. How comfortable are you with your own mortality? I'm fine with it.
12. What is your highest core value? Be on the top of others.
13. To your best knowledge, how do other people perceive you? Intelligent, cold, smart-ass.
14. How would you like others to perceive you? Mother Teresa with Bill Gates's intellectual level.
15. How confident are you in your abilities to make decisions for yourself? I'm the best at decision-making.
16. Who is the most important person in your life? My other half.
17. Who is your greatest role model? There has been a lot of changes, but I guess... no one.
18. Who is a person that you don’t like yet you spend time with? Rich friends who could actually buy what I'm selling.
19. What is your moral compass in making difficult decisions? 'Is this what I want or need in life?'
20. What is one failure that you have turned into your greatest lesson? Knowing that life needs a plan. If you fail to plan, you plan to fail.
21. How do you feel about your parents? Kind individuals who basically try to provides everything for me. Thanks.
22. How is your relationship with money? It's complicated.
23. How do you feel about growing old someday? Growing old to chill out, waste time with your loved ones, relax, enjoy life and rethink about the past.
24. What role has formal education played in your life and how do you feel about it? Compilation of old-people theories which needed to be remembered once in a lifetime to prove your existence and divides between 'do-give-a-shit' people and 'don't-give-a-shit' people.
25. Do you believe your destiny is pre-determined or in your hands to shape however you wish? We shaped things as what we want. Destiny is non-sense.
26. What do you believe is the meaning of your life? Inspire others to think different and innovative.

 wtf am i doing...

Penulisjournal.

Oranye

Semester 2. Masih aja dengan kebiasaan gue yang tiap hari cuman kuliah-bengong-tidur-pulang, begitu terus terulang sampe kiamat. Akhirnya saking bosennya, gue mencari tahu apa aja Unit Kegiatan Mahasiswa (UKM) yang ada di fakultas gue untuk mengisi waktu luang yang mendominasi keseharian ini.

Akhirnya muncul 4 nama UKM:

1. PRO (Public Relation)
2. iFocus (Fotografi)
3. Creadzy (Bikin film)
4. Oranye

Dimana dalam hati kita semua yang membaca tulisan ini, kita tahu UKM mana yang terkesan paling cupu.

Dan iya, gue akhirnya milih gabung di Oranye.


Pilih Oranye bukan karena gue menganggap adanya kesamaan 'kecupuan' antara nama UKM itu dan kepribadian gue... tetapi sekilas, Oranye terdengar sebagai UKM yang paling low-risk dibandingkan yang lain.

- Di PR, kalo gue bicara dan ternyata gak menarik... end up gue akan jadi gosip-gosip kampus yang negatif.
- Fotografi pasti pergi-pergi, dan mengeluarkan uang yang relatif banyak.
- Bikin film terdengar seru sih, tapi kalo bukan bikin film bokep gue gak tertarik.


Jadi... Apa sih kemungkinan terburuk yang bisa gue dapatkan dari bergabung di UKM bernama buah-buahan?


Yang pasti Oranye bukan UKM memasak ataupun tata bingkisan buah-buahan. Oranye Fikom Untar adalah UKM jurnalistik, tapi entah asal ide darimana bisa berubah jauh jadi nama buah. (Mungkin terinspirasi Apple buatan Steve Jobs... Entahlah.)

Well, karena gue baru join selama mungkin 3 minggu... Gue juga belum tau sih gue bakal ngapain. (Dan gue juga belum tau apa yang bisa gue ceritakan, hehe)

Anyway on a lighter note, gue akan menceritakan ketertarikan gue untuk ikut organisasi bernama DPM, dikarenakan gue jadi perwakilan Oranye untuk kegiatan itu.

By now, I'm grateful for these new experience that are guided for me.

Apple,
Penulisjournal.